I just might be the phantom of the opera's biggest fan!!

For the first time in my life I feel so in control of my life

So ive been single for 4 months now, and LOVING it! Best thing that could have ever happened to me was to get a clue and never speak to my ex again. Always follow your gut is what i learned from that! However, thats not what this entry is about! Its about the fact that over these months ive been hooking up and having rebounds and meaningless stuff that i didnt care about until now. Ive been talking to this boy for like over a month as friends and now we just started hooking up, and i really like him!! i havent felt this way in so long its so refreshing! He says such nice things to me and makes me laugh. Ugh I have a crush, but im not so sure i would be ready to give up my freedom lol

UGHHHHH MEN!!

 So after reading my two close friends blog entries about the crappy boys that were in their life, I thought I could make a blog entry about all the problems in my relationship and in my life Or I can Just make an entry about how much boys suck. When a girl truely cares about someone, they put all the cards on the table. I know for me and most of my friends, we give it our all. We are there time and time again and in the end, were the ones freaking out and upset. Why is it that men can just not think about a problem? Just ignore it and hope it will go away? I just dont get it at all. Men and Woman are so different. My relationship is pretty good, the only problem is that I want to be single. I look at Justin and he has made soo many changes in his life for me, i know how much he cares about me and wants to marry me, i know the effort that he puts in. He honestly has done everything that i have asked him to do or wanted of him. The thing is, i have had a boyfriend for so long that I want to be single for a little. I dont want to look back on my life and have any room for regret. I dont wana go threw all these years not experiencing being single when i have my whole life to be in a relationship/marriage. I feel bad about it because its definately affecting my part in the relationship. I just want to be on my own for a little bit and not hurt anyone. we will see where things go i guess. Who knows whats just around the river bend.

It has been over a year since i have made a blog entry, i didnt even realize. Its a bit rediculous how time flieeeess so fast!